I am not finished with my series on Sex for Survivors but, today I wanted to share my heart.
You tried to kill me from the inside out.
Each one of you took this little girl and put her through hell and when you were done, passed me off to the next monster.
For years I lived in fear, shame, and the darkness of your shadow.
My whole life was lived groomed to appease your wicked appetites.
Beating me, tearing flesh, yelling, and bullying me, these were your handicraft.
You lived without any fear of being found out. You had me so beaten down and silenced.
It's about to change for you.
When I became a survivor you only thought you had to worry about being found out.
When I became a survivor you started hiding, and immediately cried out that I was a liar.
You only just started to comprehend the feelings of fear and insecurity.
You started throwing accusations and insults. It was never in your plan for this little girl to grow up.
You think it's bad enough I am a survivor and talking about what you did to me but, I got news for you.
I'm a warrior now and I'm coming for you.
You will be the ones having nightmares. Your hands will bleed from clenching your fists so hard your nails embed themselves in your skin. Your cold hearts will slowly start to rot alive. You are going to be afraid to hear my name. You will be the ones hurting and begging for mercy.
I will make you a deal though. I will never come to see you in person but, you will see me EVERYWHERE.
I am going to shout from the roof tops what each and everyone of you did to me.
Don't bother fearing whether or not I will tell, start figuring out what rock you're going to hide under until it's time for you to go back to hell where you came from.
If you're a rapist and you're reading this... run.